Taken in, Taken in again...

Taken in, taken in again
Wrapped around the finger of some fair-weather friend
Caught up in the promises, left out in the end
No pride, taken for a ride
You say I'm the only one when I look in your eyes
I want to believe you but you know how to lie

And if you say you understand I don't believe it
And when you reach out for my hand I don't believe it
And if you say you take the blame I don't believe it
And if say that nothing's changed I don't believe it, don'tbelieve it

Taken in, taken in again
Someone saw me coming, a fool without a friend
There's one born every minute and you're looking at him

And if you say you want me near I don't believe it
And when you're holding back the tears I don't believe it
And when you swear that you are mine I don't believe it
And it's your heart that's on the line I don't believe it, don'tbelieve
it

Taken in, taken in again
Wrapped around the finger of some fair-weather friend
Caught up in the promises, left out in the end
No pride, taken for a ride
You say I'm the only one when I look in your eyes
I'd love to believe you but you know how to lie

You say you want me near I don't believe it
And when you're holding back the tears I don't believe it
Oh, there's one born every minute, you're looking at him

Taken in, taken in again
Someone saw me coming, a fool without a friend
I want to believe you, oh
When you say you understand
When you reach out for my hand
Oh, I wish I could believe you
Taken in, taken in again


Awesome song now bleh... i feel sick allergies i feel all fuzzy in my head and kinda not feeling soo good, I'm soo whiney i knoo thats why only few people know about this blog bc i dont really think anyone cares to hear about whining so yeah. Which is also why i write in this, its a good way to vent so i dont care, today was a very lovely day today i love this weather couldnt enjoy it much because i'm sick but still it was lovely... was with my love for a bit i was happy, then everyone left and yet again alone... someone told me to get use to being alone, i dont think it was meant as an insult i think it was meant in situations such as these. i dont feel happy right now bc i am alone also something upset me that kinda made me feel awfully sad and hurt really like a knife to the heart. i cant complain bc if i do then i am making a big deal and over reacting maybe i am... but if you sent someone a message and they write everyone but you isnt there something wrong with that? after you try to give the proper attention say nice things and yet in the end you get nothing, just waiting.... People lie, I lie, Everyone lies. I try not to but in the end everyone lies about something right? And it may not be a bad lie if there is a good lie. I just wish i didnt care much especially about people who say they care but i think they dont actually i am pretty sure they dont...lies lies lies. yet i can be wrong this could all just be in my head, damn the brain and its mysteries, its paranoia, delusions, and misconceptions. also i have no one to talk to about this as always bc either i get more questions or i get emotional answers instead of logical ones. what i think though is i kno i am gonna say something i regret i always do i am gonna say what is bothering me and it will backfire in my face. Win to lose situation....

pulls away...from you

I've always hated when someone told me I was a bad person. I kno that ya kno? I kno who I am and I'm not great but I'm not fucking evil or damn I'm not a bad person. I hate when they stab the kinfe in piercing the heart but do they have to twist it too? Usually when they twist they mean to kill I hate how I'm feeling and I have no one to talk to really no one who could understand my current misery. What's funny is tommorro it will be as if nothing happened, what a way to live, cry now laugh later, as they all say get over it right? I do but its always there that fucking knife twisting inside. I'm only angry tommorro I'll find my way, its always better the next day.

Me and my mind my poor poor mind stop caring oh wait that's my small tiny heart eh....

sometimes i wonder hmm i get angry for things that im wondering maybe i shouldnt get mad at maybe im over reacting ya kno? but damn is it my fault all the time? i cant just be making a big deal over everything and also i mean get over it? really? im sorry if i cant be soo submissive and be like ok its dropped...ok time to breathe and sleep sweet bc im in love with my one and hes all i need. yes im soo sure hes perfect. wow all of a sudden im not angry anymore, even when hes unavailable i think of him and instant happiness. now this is bliss.

swimming in a pool of confusion...

and it seems im beginning to drown. my paranoia always gets the best of me i think i see things and i dont kno if i dont or maybe i do. i dont even kno what im trying to say im just soo lost. i think im drowning going deeper and deeper the light is going away trying to swim up but i cant reach the surface. lately all i want to do is be with him, all i want is him, if hes not around i feel nothing, i kno what i have to do but im stuck. im drowning i think maybe im just idk i need a push and hes pushing believe me hes pushing but it doesnt seem to work its me its always me. when will i wake up? i need to quit being paranoid and thinking the worst but its soo hard when people put words and questions in my head i think and think then i begin to see things and think well maybe this that is true and i snap out of it that is when i kno i need to stop and do something else to get my mind off of things. but i find myself asking should i listen to me or to them? am i blinded by this love for him? so many questions and as always never any answers. for now i will continue to sink. i notice im talking about 2 different subjects i confuse myself sometimes.