A Precious illusion

so beautiful so cruel so very misguiding im so tired of constantly having him in my thoughts of wanting him of needing him loving him just the thought of me never being able to touch him hurts my heart i love him so yet the feelings arent mutual i dont even kno what im talking about i wish he would just i just dont kno leave me in peace and be removed from my mind from my heart my poor heart but i kinda dont want that i dont know what i want i kno what i want but i cant have him and im confusing myself yeah i need to stop.