what to do...what to do.

well so far ive been avoiding my fallen angel because there is a reason why he fell hes a cruel unforgiving individual one that breaks my heart that everytime i look at him its only in disgust because he doesnt love me and i cant ask him to because you cant force what you cant have plus there has to be something more than him there has to be even if i dont see it now there just needs to be ive learned that if someone truly cares about you they wont tell you things to hurt you because when you love someone all you want to do is shield them from any sort of hurt he didnt he never did and look at me still in love with someone who doesnt even care about my heart about my feeling no no no i dont deserve this or maybe i do but i have the power to change it and i wont go back atleast for now. my drug its gonna be hell to get over but i must. well work is in like an hour and it takes me 2 hours to get ready soo gotta get a move on!