Lets do this!

i had no idea what to title this blog. i wont be able to write later, and im working till midnight so im saying lets do this because when it comes to work i gotta do this. Speaking of doing things, i need to get on track with my life and everything, for instance i got my financial aide so i now should probably go to the college and get everything set for january. i just keep putting it off due to the fact that i looathe going back! i hated school alot and i dont want to even want to really imagine going back but i know i have to or i wont make a difference in the lives of others and ill be nothing like ive been all along. My other fear is the thought of failing or disappointing people i couldnt live with myself knowing that im trying and trying and trying only to fail in the end and i know you wont fail if you try and dedicate yourself to succeed but what if im the exception what if after all my attempts to succeed i fail? theres just that doubt so i try really hard to think i can do it, they say its extremely hard but i tell them i can do it i can. i dont always believe that but when it comes down to it i hope that i can do it that i can succeed in the career that ive finally chosen. so now i gotta plan a date when i should go up there probably wednesday maybe monday i really dont want to go i really dont but i must or else ill keep delaying it and you never know something could go wrong with paper work, scheduling and financial aide. time seems like it lasts forever sometimes but for me in this instance it feels like theres just no time or too little time. well work is just two hours away so i must leave you astray. that was pretty lame i know but i dont know. farewell....