Anyone in their Right Mind would Learn....

the to be continues will have to be continued later i was hoping to have a happy blog today but i dont. First i realized he doesnt even listen to me he just ignores me a person i think most of ignores me taunts me is so beyond cruel hes pure evil,his words acidic. my heart hurts so much and he doesnt even care, my tears dont affect him he even made fun of me for crying. im sensitive when it comes to words from him cause he means so much to me. he use to be soo good to me so kind so perfect so beautiful or maybe he never was and i painted that portrait of him. i think of all the nice things he use to tell me and i cant believe he is the same person, today should be the final straw he didnt even apologize or anything he was mean to me for no reason i did nothing i try to do everything for him i even get in trouble for loving him so much and caring for him. but i take it because i think hes worth it but this is to much so much anguish too much pain. someone told me you do things for him that make you the perfect girl but your stupid because he does nothing for you and its true nothing its bad that i expect something but why else would i do so much? oh wait because i love him what an imbecile i am to think if i try if i try what? what am i to expect ? this is all my fault. you know what he told me so cold your gonna cook for me right? oh thats messed up. so your just gonna lay in bed all day and cry? you should go running or something instead of just laying around all day crying.... hes soo mean after everything i do nothing but this and i take it i accept this form of abuse. and still i fall i keep falling and i never seem to get up i hate my existence where all i have to look forward to is this. all because i cant move on i cant let go.i hurt so much and i just have to suck it up move forward cook his meal because i love him i do i want to make him  happy and happiness starts at the stomach right? i know what your thinking this girl is crazy i am i really am but you know what i think is maybe he'll see one day and finally understand finally see. you know what else he says my eyes are ugly and majority of our population has my eyes little does he know mine have black lines surrounding my pupil he just doesnt look at them why cant he just compliment me?also he asked why are you here i told him i didnt want to be alone i left out that i like to be near him around him i dont know why cause hes always mean to me. well im off to clean and cook such a fool. what did i do? later on in the day i cleaned, cooked basically did as i was told i didnt lay in the bed anf fucking cry all day. i hate him so much right now he writes me only to bitch at me about something stupid after all that i did all of it was in vein all of it was nothing it didnt make him feel good at all that i did all this for him im just so tired and i dont know what to do its a cant live with cant live without thing, i just hate myself so much because i take it and i take it. im just all alone in this i get tired of being alone and thats all i am is alone and i hate it because i have no one. this is what i look forward to forever pleasing someone who treats me so awful that i blame myself and hate myself? is this it? when will it all end? the worst part is i do it to myself i care too much what a cruel fate i brought upon myself.