its been awhile

since i last wrote alot has happened well not really but id like to think alot has happened because maybe it has and i just havent noticed.... i finally got "internet" so maybe ill be writing everyday from now yeah write after a few days ill forget all about this or something i dont know that happens with me alot i forget to write or maybe i just dont feel like it and i let it go all together no one actually reads this so isnt that enough to stop? to me blogs that are posted online is a call for attention i admit i want attention everyone does id like to think then there are times when id rather be left alone all my words equal confusion i know i never make sense i love to write in this thing cause i know no one will read it or atleast actually pay attention i look at different blogs but i never actually get into it like oh what does this person have to say today? they are so interesting i love it no im the opposite i dont care what anyone has to say unless its someone of value someone important to me im not looking for someone let them look for me even then ill pay little attention and eventually ill question their motives well thats all i have to say about today i guess