well this weekend was not what i would call the best the only good thing about it actually was that i went to the bookstore and got some books isnt that exciting and yesterday was an extremely depressing day i didnt like yesterday at all i mean its not that i didnt get to go its just that he didnt even call right away like i didnt matter and its like he knows i'll get over it so theres no point i guess in upsetting me cause yeah he knows i'll always come back how pathetic at least he tried calling again although it hurt that he basically blew me off but he tried to make up for it by inviting me over i should have said yes but i have too much pride for that i would feel like a dog isnt it horrible how half of this is about nothing of no importance to anyone else but me and i feel like an idiot writing about him all the time so i am gonna move on...the thing is theres nothing to actually write about when forget it.... yesterday afternoon i was going to get a drink but then i thought what would that do it would just make me realize how alone i actually am so i got a take 5 and a green tea instead while i was there i saw the CVS dude who might i say is cute for some reason hes just so innocent and shy looking and everytime i see him i cant help but smile hes just so serene yet not and lately he looks more confident i wonder what woke him up? one day i'll talk to him yesterday like i was saying we were about to leave and he said "ms." and i felt like he said it to me cause i looked and he looked right at me but i didnt think he could possibly be talking to me so i walked off later on after i got home i was like was he talking to us it just agitated me cause i wondered was he trying to get my attention? oh well such a foolish fairy tale thought but still who was he talking to? now onto this morning i wasnt again in the social mood so i went to the library and talked to v i've been doing that alot lately well atleast in the mornings i guess i have been thinking alot lately about everything and i've realized i'm happy but not truly cause i cant explain why i just i dont know forget it... thats all....
To Be Continued...
now i'm in 2nd and i need help on yes the project that i have been working on forever but i cant get help because this technically isnt my class so yeah i'm basically in here just to chill which in my opinion was a mistake i should probably go back to class and do my other work but i stay why? oh well i was just thinking of how much time i waste doing nothing absolutely nothing thinking of how i have nothing to say etc and how everything i say doesnt matter to anyone i talk to will they think of my words when i'm gone? will they remember everything i told them? probably not but when i'm gone it wont even matter cause i wont know or maybe i just wont care... i think a little too much i wish i just had a one tract mind it would make me feel alot better... sarcasm is a curse placed on everyone at one point...
To be Continued...
i wonder what life would be like if there was no such thing as boring
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