i always seem to fall

i never get caught.... well i hated yesterday as i am starting to hate everyday today last day of skool and yet i managed to wake up late on the last fuckin' day i cant believe i over slept and even when i do i never over sleep where i am on the edge of being truly late it was horrible extremely horrible but moving on to yesterday i died again like i die everyday i cant handle how i feel i cant explain it to the person i feel it for in fear that they will not understand yet with that knowledge a change of the subject quickly leads me to belive that he truly doesnt care at all about me which is understandable of course why should i matter i am nothing and nothing is always somehting but in this case that something is nothing that makes no sense to anyone but me and even i truly dont fully understand it but yet i do... there are just things that he does that shows how much he secretly loathes me for things that i have no clue about and all i do is love do as i am told what a cruel fate i have led for myself...