this weekend was almost fun well it was actually sunday was the most i went bowling yeah i know how whack the worst part was that i was horrible at it the highest score i got was i think a 56 or like a 65 one of them we (my sis and i) went with my "friend" and his brother who is totally different from him but in a good way and it was fun its just the day well afternoon went by so fast there wasnt realy enough time to hang out you know what let me start from the beginning starting with fri. worked as usual the only good thing was that my bro came into town...sat. we (me and my other friend ves) worked our asses off from 10:30 to 5:30 lets just say no breaks ok except for little sit downs well after work me and ves and my "friend" hung out just playing games at home nothing really huge it was a good day that day except for the constant work but thats ok cause i got to hang with my 2 special people together w/out any fight or nothing everything went well...now on sun. the morning wasnt so great there was arguing abit for things of no importance well we were suppose to call my "friends" bro early but i didnt know that so yeah we ended up basically wasting the day away until the afternoon just let me go on to my "friends" bro well he's different from anyone i know theres just something about him that makes me fowardly blunt and i'm not like that i felt so dumbfounded it wasnt even funny and me i am not really the "social" type i'm extremely awkward especially around guys seriously its bad so i basically kind of made a fool of myself trust me if you would have known what i said at the end then omg that was the worst i'm not good at all with asking people to hang out so here i go like a dumbass saying "hit me up on your next day off" how cheesy is that pretty cheesy horrible cheesy i felt like such a loser i think i even said it twice i just feel so embarrassed cause my actions are just hilarious in an innocent awkward way and i basically made a complete fool of myself but it was worth it i was kinda mad cause the day ended so fast and we didnt really have a chance to actually hang out but thats ok another time hopefully...i find myself seeing that my "friend" is actually becoming a best friend i am seeing myself putting so much trust in him telling him everything how i feel how i think basically my insanity and i dont know if i'm doing the right thing should i keep on like this should i open up to someone who i hardly know anything about i told him alot cause i dont know his eyes those damn eyes i just i dont know feel like he gets it yet not confusing right i just dont want to be alone there are very few people who i actually show my true self too and that my family my two best buds trace and ves and now my "friend" and his bro i have mentioned little of who i am, this this blog here isnt everything about me about who i am well not a 100 percent who knows all i could be writing could be lies but only i know the truth so no foul no harm its just i know no body i know actually reads this and thats ok with me its just something i could write what i think about on... weird actaully how i am so different yet the same well the bell is just about to ring so i will leave you...
To be Continued...
well this morning was a normal morning except i didnt hang w/ v cause i had to just had to tell ves. about yesterday and later on after that i made my "friends" bro a bday card how sweet cause today is his bday and i prolly sound like a girly girl how dense of me i know but i cant help it today i was extremly happy and everyone was asking why are you so happy of course i didnt tell them but hey who cares? i know why i am so happy but of course with every happy moment theres always a worry i can never be truly happy because again i think too much and now i'm thinking of something totally off subject and i'm starting to worry i mean i kinda believe in astrology and i just thought of one of the readings it said be aware of trusting someone they may not be what they seem or something and i am thinking just too much what am i doing today? absolutely nothing just working work work work oh well i ran out of things to write for today i have talked about all i wanted to so i will leave it at this....
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