this morning i decided to go to the library because i didnt really feel like being around anyone or hearing the loud noises of people so i secluded myself in the library cause everyone knows you have to be quiet in the library so i was perfect later on my friend sat with me shes so adorable i care for her alot cause shes similar to me but in a more creative beautiful way later on another friend v came by and he needed help with his english paper a conclusion mostly but i thought finally i'm needed so i jumped to the chance this being the guy i once had an infatuation for i didnt mind it cause we were friends and after all it was only a minor crush nothing where i love him he's just an attractive guy that i thought was oh you get it... but i dont know today is just a day where i want to be around certain people i guess no thats not the right word where i want to be reclusive but if someone decides to join me in it their welcome perfect thats it so yes... will i be like this all day? probably not it wont last i'll end up becoming the social butterfly again or maybe i'll end up just being quiet or looking as if i'm upset but i'm not i'm just i dont know thinking being withdrawn or w/e.... i find myself sitting here actually thinking looking down at my chipped nail polish that doesnt look noticeably chipped and i'm just thinking today is going to be a lonely day and i dont know why maybe because 2 of the people i care for arent here but 1 more is and that should be enough but i dont know i just feel as if today is going to be a lonely quiet day but then again i've been wrong before.... anyways i see as i'm waiting for some artistic part of me to bust out and explain everything i want to say and feel in theories or "philosophical" statements i in reality am "one dimensional" i guess i'm not smart or w/e or maybe i'm just not motivated enough....
To be continued...later on in the day....
well i wasnt exactly quiet like i thougth i would be maybe it was just a morning thing i dont know but i'm back or am i?nvm now anyways about my philosophical insights i wish to become more imaginative and i believe my studying different philosophers i will see different opinions on life, love, beauty, truth, hate etc. i'm not trying to copy their ideas but i just want to view their ideas and opinions and learn something new hear something that could change my view on life just i dont know how to explain it its kinda confusing but thats ok i guess i'm the only one who actually gets me so yeah.... anyways right now i am in my 5th period on here obvioulsy listening to what is now kc &jojo i know totally old skool but i dont care i love this song!
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