Boredom is sweet, But it's more fun with you, I hate everybody...and you hate 'em too

Mellowdrone my now and even forever favorite band....

My 1st love song (a lovely song) (in red favorite lyrics in the song)

I'll be the boy And you'll be my girly I'll write us a love song It'll tell us a story And you'll show it off To all of your friends And they'll all get jealous Or at least they'll pretend But I'm sorry to say... I'm not that clever I can't write words that'll last you forever So everyone, all gather 'round Watch me just sit here, Watch me crack down All just for you Just so you know It all falls apart Whenever you go Boredom is sweet, But it's more fun with you I hate everybody...and you hate 'em too So let's have a drink In fact make it two Because of lately, I'm becoming immune I did nothing wrong But it hurts anyway And for that I'm sorry, For that I'm sorry So everyone, all gather 'round Watch me just sit here, Watch me crack down All just for you Just so you know It all falls apart Whenever you go Whenever you go Whenever you go....

moving on to later on in the period yesterday well i was alone till he came along and i felt better i didnt feel alone anymore how pathetic and dependent i am on him sad really but i dont know i guess he puts a smile on my face everytime dammit i'm ranting again well thats all that happened i just got happy then later on i felt awful because of a dilemma a small one yet i dont know i just felt like i should've done more for him and i didnt and i just kept thinking about it all day about what i could've done if i would've just tried harder but then it wouldn't have been my place to try to make him stay although i always want him to stay he knows that i make it so obvious and now i feel i am sounding obsessive when i should know better than to be writing like this i guess i'll never learn why care for someone who doesnt really care about me? maybe he does yeah i know he does but then again i've been wrong before... i really need to find someone who loves me not anyone else but just me and someone who never gets bored cause i am an extremely boring person but i just need to move on and find someone new although its wrong cause i am doing it just to get over him how pathetic....

To Be Continued...

well i am now in 5th yet again not really talking to anyone cause i am not really in the "talking" mood right now so i am just sitting here thinking as usual i want to read but i dont think i could give it the full attention it deserves i mean i guess sometimes i want to be alone yet not so i could read or do something that expands my mind so i could become a more intelligent person yet i always find myself failing giving up i always give up because i always fail but i once heard from a misunderstood guy who is actually very interesting and is a good guy that i'm not stupid or i'm not slow i just take my time thats all... and i never really looked at my life like that i always thought i was a failure but then i thought hey i'm not dropping out i'm still here trying to graduate there has been time i've had my doubts where i wanted to quit but then i thought about the ones i care about most i dont want to disappoint them so i stayed and look at me i am finally graduating and it feels good cause this is the one thing i didnt give up on so maybe i should try more and take my time cause yeah maybe i'll accomplish it like i've accomplished graduating... now on to other things on my mind...i'm still trying to finish the project i have in this class i've done a little i just have to wait awhile till i get help i hate when i dont know what to do it makes me feel inferior to everyone elses intelligence and i hate that i hate to have to swallow my pride to ask for help it just gets to me i guess... class is almost over in about 10 min. and i'm waiting i'm just so tired i dont even want to go to work today cant wait till sunday though we're suppose to b going out but i dont know next time i write it will be monday so farewell for now....

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