does that make any sense? the concert i wanted to go to i now cant because i have no ride i really wanted to go i wish i knew how to drive then maybe i could go even if i'm alone i would still be able to hear the beautiful music they play i love it i've only heard one song from the cinematics and already i love them does that make me weird? today we got to come to skool late i was grateful for that i'm so tired of skool thank god its my last year all the work i wish i could write more on how i feel but whats the point no one cares that may sound "emo" but its the truth no one cares and thats the reality of things i mean yes there are a few who actually try but in my time i've only met about 5 max. even then i could be wrong do they really care? Right now i am in a state of "solitude" the thing is i only have 2 people i truly want to be around (that arent related) when one of them are there i dont need anyone else i could go on forever with just them my family is automatic no doubt i always feel ok with them its just that i feel myself seperating from my group drifting away into beautiful oblivion with them just them and i hate how dependent i am on them yet with them i feel ok i feel complete.... when they leave my heart will break and like all things i love eventually they leave and i must set them free....
later in the day-
the bells gonna ring and i'm miserable i wanna be quiet i really dont want to be here seriously right now in this moment i am slightly annoyed w/ myself and another who obviously doesnt give a shit about me yet i stay and wait patiently for them to care an ounce of hope is shot down by an unsuspected other who i thought was him but was totally wrong why do i even try? i give up i just want to go home i'm so tired of all this
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